Landslide

Mentally Exhausted

I usually don't use this blog to write, but I've got no one else to confide in.
Today I'm feeling a strange mix of emotions. I'd say, maybe post traumatic stress stemming from yesterday's uncomfortable Christmas, my perpetual loneliness etc.

My family (aside from my loving grandmother) went from being the kind of people who celebrate diversity and differences and art, to being the kind of people who condemn those kinds of things. All in the span of about six years. Unfortunately, having been raised with the opposite of their new found ideals, I've now been rendered the black sheep of the family. My mother uses every chance she can get to remark about how "weird" I am. Passive comments about my interests, my appearance, my goals etc.

I guess I'm writing this because I'm annoyed?
Because I needed a place to put my thoughts?

People say that works right?

I am. I'm just annoyed, and exhausted.


Mentally exhausted.


Fortunately, I've only got to run into my family about once a year when I fly back to Alaska from Hollywood to visit for Christmas (something I'm not sure I have to stomach to do again). But, every year there seems to be that familiar feeling of stiff, and akward, and arrogant... bullshit.

Also, a relationship I had going isn't turning into what I hoped it might. I've never been in a real relationship before so I'm disappointed about that. I'd love to know what it feels like. I'm not sure this person was cut out for me anyways, as a Libra...I need a lot more than this person can give.

BLAHHH.

I feel like an asshole even expressing myself. Just more whining from another one of a billion people who have different or similar issues and post long blogs or write in diaries or cry to their best friends or on their facebooks about how they feel, so sad so bad so crab. I wish I could just shut off my emotions in a healthy way, and just be one gorgeous shell with dignity, elegance, and not a care in the world.


I can't be bothered.



-BD

GIANT wardrobe NEEDS post: I want!

I'm too lazy to separate or label all this into different posts :P
I need pieces from all these looks.




Crunch.











I need a baggyish distressed jean in a really light wash.






Hat.






It's so hard to find a good pair of non-stretch dark denim to slash like this.
Anyone can recommend a brand? I wish Levi's would get wit it. They have the best fitting mens jeans.

Jed

I wanted to post this for some reason, Maybe so I can remember to buy a sweater like that. I love good, simple, comfy looks that still have an aesthetically pleasing appeal. This I feel has that.



-viathesartorialist.blogspot.com

Dree Hemingway

Love those glasses. Alien glasses.


-Via Altamiranyc


My new favorite blog.

Lara: Off Duty

Ugh, girl kills me.






-via Altamiranyc.blogspot.com

Free Among The Dead

Victor & Rolf Sequin Socks.

Want.

Numb

I'm tired today. I mean, I'm usually tired..but I'm extra tired today.

I've got a sensation, from being so overwhelmed... I don't feel present.
As much as I love the idea of new prospects, I'm terrified of missing out or losing.
My cat isn't snuggling me today.


My boots are on too tight.


- BD

Lust For Life

As much as Hunx annoyed me on that show, this is a hit.

Pandemonia

LOVING, this latex marlboro dress. I'm in awe.

I-D Mag winter 2009

Summertime LIVE!

This is my new song.


Imagine:

Boots on! Driving down Sunset Blvd. in the heat of the night. Hot, sweat. Cigarette burning, smoke dancing. Lights flashing, billboards passing. Windows down, wind rushing. Red light in my evil eyes.

Summertime

-Ninedaughtersandastereo
casting agency

Easy Rider

-viarackkandruin

Boppin'

I'm loving this girl right now.

Love Love Love

The Soul Of My Suit

Vincent

I would totally wear those leopard pants! With my plum boots and a droopy white T.
Neeed.

Electric Youth!

0:23

1:13

I WANNA BE A PART OF THIS

"As fashion moves to embrace new media, the role of the editorial is changing: video is becoming an integral part of how magazines and brands present fashion. From the fascinating live feeds at Showstudio, to the mini-movies that have accompanied campaigns for Burberry and Alexander McQueen: everyone is moving beyond static pictures and into new frontiers of visual expression."

-via models.com